Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Sorry for being like that in the previous post eh? Give me a reason to look forward to waking up at 630am everyday, reaching school at 715am everyday.

I'm sure it will all be over soon. If it's possible, I'd like to walk behind you, 'cos I know you'll want to handle it alone. But yet, just want to make sure you'll not fall, no matter what.

-js-

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Fucking retarded. Firstly, I didn't ask around, so get that right. Told you I hate being accused of doing something. I don't really give a fuck how big or how small the thing is. Get that right.

Secondly, if that's what you want, fine. I really cannot be bothered. Well, maybe I still can but it's really reaching the limit soon. I'll be honest. It's harder than I expected.

Up to you. Really. Seriously, period.

And please, stop what YOU are doing. I don't care if I'm pissing you off.

-js-

Saturday, June 23, 2007

想通了。不放。=)

不是你的错，也不是任何人的错。顺其自然还是最好。

若是让你伤心，抱歉。知道道歉没用，但只能这么说。对不起。

-js- 老实说，我还真是累了。这一个星期自己都没好好的睡个好觉。等待是多么的痛苦。试过为了一则简讯而从晚上十一点钟等到凌晨一两点钟吗？等到自己真的无法再等了，才失望的去睡。


我也不知道为什么自己会傻傻的为了一分钟而等上一个小时。关心？只知道自己突然很想这么做，也不管自己会不会等到。


我还真的哭了。好久都没哭了。虽说男儿有泪不轻弹(不知哪一个tan2)，但自己还真是哭了。不是因为自己无法再承受这一些问题，而是因为。。我也不知道。只知道泪不由自主的流了下来。这一两天的心情不是很好，动不动就会骂人。


自己不管怎么样，还是一个臭阿明的样子(chao ah beng)。发现每当自己不开心或有事时，就会摆出一个死阿明的样子。可能就是因为这样最近几天都引来不少不必要的麻烦。


够了。累了。真的累了。第一次叫人别回复简讯。我不想再为谁添麻烦，或缠着别人。说得过吗？说得倒容易。自己是否会这么做？我不觉得。


这，也算太直接吗？


一直说自己多么的累，可没想到她也会累。抱歉，可能就是因为自己过于自私。


碰面时，自己也没向人打个招呼，算什么？自找的。


给我一个不放弃的理由吧。朋友问过：“值得吗？”自己顿了一会儿，想了想。心中有了答案。 “不值得。”可能自己已回答了自己的问题。是时候放手？不舍得也舍不得。

暧昧关系。那是什么？

我不曾说过要和任何人在一起。不知为何很多人都说不要逼。很想知道为何这么多人认为我在逼。可能是因为自己对此事过于坦率，没顾到对方的感受。抱歉。


又哭了。一个大男生在一个下午，整整哭了两三次。是时候收拾心情。


真希望能。。能？我不知道。苏永康有一首歌“男人不该让女人流泪”。


没受到你的简讯不是一件好事，但至少你能好好的冷静。Take care. 就只能这么做。

喜欢一个人不须拥有，只要对方开心，就够了。但，有时自己很想让对方开心，而做出一些让人纳闷的举动。抱歉。

希望你已好一点了。


-js-

Friday, June 22, 2007

Please be better alright? Much as you keep saying you're fine but you know la huh? Can sense that something's not right. So, just please be better a'ights? Bao? =/

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Going for a haircut soon. Oh no. No more long fringes and no more long back. Ah shucks. Haha. Wasted. Nevermind! =)

-js-

Thursday, June 21, 2007

It ain't really fun sitting outside VCH, waiting for someone for about an hour or so. Not especially since you're feeling hungry and sleepy. But when you see someone and you finally pass that parcel over, you know it's worth it. =)

-js-

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Well, had a nice dinner with about 1 thirds of the section last night. Had lots of laughs and fun. Yupps. She looked darn fine. Understatement. Thinking of another word to use but ah forget it. You get the idea.

History consultation right after this. How nice! I'm totally looking forward to it. Right? =)

Heart to heart talks are good. They keep you sane.

Dating a girl's harder than striking 4-D. Ha. You can say that again.

-js-

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Life hasn't beem exactly very interesting for the past few days. Seems rather common for me to comment that life's been rather mundane and boring. Not surprisingly, I had fun while doing library CIP. I insist on calling it CIP. Haha. It was rather interesting to spend an afternoon with a few rascals in the library.

I realize that I don't think very well at night. Especially when it's somewhere like 1am or 2am. Or worse, 4am in the morning. Woke up, asking myself what on earth did I just do a few hours ago. A'ights now that shows my brain's dead. But I guess I tend to say what's true only when it's like some unearthly hour? Not very sure. Ah heck. Can't really be bothered with it no more. Not since it ALREADY happened right? Shoots.

CAPERS starts tomorrow. Sighs. Now that means more work and more lessons even before school starts. I've been feeling rather angsty lately. Been snapping at a few people over the past few days. Either it's the songs on Power 98 or that the rain's been affecting my lil anatomy called the brain. Or for whatever reason, I've decided to not be Mr. Patient. But then again, I've never been very patient with anyone. Well, we'll see.

Band of the month, Maroon 5. Not sure why. Power 98 says so. I've been dropping dedications lately. I guess the DJs know my name by now. Haha. I'm going nuts. Signs that I should really stop sleeping at 2am and waking up at 5am. Going crazy.

Packed my table. Got pissed off a couple of times when my mum kept calling for me especially since she knew I was busy. And why did she call for me? 'cos she wanted me to help her load the pictures from the camera. Or should I say, she wanted to pass me the memory stick. Like what?! I mean, is there a need to call for me like a million times just to pass me some retarded piece of metal+plastic? Crazy. Would it kill to just leave it on the table? Madness. It's as though if I don't go get it, I'll just like, disintegrate and cease to exist.

Feeling angsty and in the mood for some rock music. Sadly, I don't have many rock songs. A'ights, I guess that means, time to hit the organ. =)

-js-

Thursday, June 14, 2007

It's halfway through, or slightly more than halfway through the June hols. Hmm. Now that's not very good given I haven't really done much. I shall start soon. Or should I say, I need to start soon.

Back hasn't been very good lately. Experienced a couple of spasm moments during enCOre and had one during lunch. Hmm. Not really sure why too. Ah so much for being in PES A. Haha. Guess it doesn't affect?

2a-7am-2am-8am-1am-6am = going to fall sick and dying from fatigue soon.

-js-

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into Your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you -
Yeah I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

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Everything I do, I do it for you. Yea.

-js-

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

The following was typed with a damn dulan mood, coupled with getting pissed by a few people. So don't take it personally. Thanks.

Damn dulan. Just super damn kaobei dulan. It's been a long time since I last cursed like this. But it really is sibei kaobei damn dulan! It's not 'cos I saw some people while studying today, neither was it 'cos we all went off together. It's something else that really makes me damn kaobei dulan. I'm trying not to press the "F" on the keyboard 'cos I know the letter "U" will come next, so I shall not do so.

Damn dulan la! No response. Seriously no response. Or lack of response. Aiyah donno la. Just damn dulan. And tomorrow still must go back school for that CIP thing. Whatever la. DULAN!

I also donno why I wake up so early do all these things. Sit there want to go toilet also cannot. Hungry also cannot go eat. I also donno why I'm doing this to myself. Supposed to go watch movie to chill and relax in the end, walked around aimlessly for donno how long. Damn dulan. Just suay la. My fault.

-js-

Saturday, June 09, 2007

It's now. It's the last day of my season. It sure is sad to know that after 6 years of being involved in CO, it's coming to an end, just like that. Happy that I won't have to stress myself over it again, sad that I won't be able to stress myself over it again. How I wish, I'd be in CO for a longer time.

I'll miss the times when the L people talk rubbish and indulge in silly conversations.
I'll miss the times when we discuss about gong fa and zhi fa.
I'll miss the times when we encourage each other.
I'll miss the times when my hair stands afer listening to the er hus or gao hus.
I'll miss the times when we all take the same train home after CO.
I'll miss the times seeing you play during combined, attractive.
I'll miss the times seeing you get busy 'cos of CO.
I'll miss ACCO.

Today's the day. Make it perfect. I will want to.

1 thing at a time boy, 1 thing at a time.

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Sometimes I wonder if you really know what I'm trying to say, 'cos it's rather ambiguous and hazy. I can only look back at the times in MPH and say to myself, I'm a lucky boy. Yea.

-js-

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Puffy people. =/