Saturday, December 31, 2005

Changed my blogskin again! Haha. Hope you guys like it. My love for gaming somehow died. Hmms. I have no idea why but it seems that games no longer appeal to me. The attraction ain't there no more. Wonder why. I used to be a hardcore gamer, playing computer games practically 80% of the time. But now, I just can't seem to bring my mouse cursor to the game icon and double click on it. Haha. Well, I guess that's a good thing. At least I don't waste my time on useless activities now.

I see a certain transition in my life, this year especially. My life really changed this year. From the beginning of this year all the way to today. Learnt about lots of stuff. How to handle things and also how to face things bravely. I'm not afraid of setbacks anymore. 'cause I know that there's a silver lining to behind every cloud. Just have to wait for the cloud to move away. Quoted from Val.

To Val : Don't think too much too yea? Take things easily. Just have to move on and keep yourself busy. Let things come naturally. Don't search for something that's going to be yours. Allow it to come to you as things are already planned. Alright? =)

I'm developing scars on my forehead. Haha. All thanks to the pimples. Sickening. Haha. I sound so metrosexual here. Hmms. Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. But, who's the beholder? Nobody knows.

-js-

Friday, December 30, 2005

I'm back from chalet! =)

Anyway, regarding my previous post, I didn't know what I was thinking when I wrote He died for me on Christmas. My goodness. It's such a BIG MISTAKE!!! Bleargh. What I think I wanted to say was actually, He was born on this day, to die for me. Haha. Sorry folks.

I'll go catch some sleep first. Will blog more later.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Action Packed! That's how I would describe the week! Haha. Let's recap shall we?

Sunday - Christmas! Haha. Wonderful day. Why? 'cos the Special One died for me on this very day. He's the reason to why I'm here. But sadly, nobody invited Him to his own Birthday party, inviting a fake boozoo called Santa. Sighs.

Monday - Boxing day. Had 2L BBQ! Haha. It rocked like my socks! Haha. Lots of people too! Weee. Haha. Thanks Sekha! Haha. Ate and played real hard. Really great fun to be with those bunch of people. LOL.

Tuesday - 4K Chalet today! Haha. Going to be fun, I hope.

Ok, 3 days into the week and I feel that it's a swell week already! Haha!! Whoots!! Who needs girlfriends when you have friends like 4K-ers and 2L people?!

I love You.

you broke my heart, trampled it but You saved me and loved me like there's no tomorrow. =)

-js-

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Well well well. Christmas is coming soon! Haha. Just finished dinner. Yups. That's erm, my dad's plate. Haha. Forgot to take a picture before the meal started. Started with Mushroom & Chicken Soup, with Salad and bread. Followed by Pasta. Then it was the main course. Turkey and Ham with Hotdogs, sided by Potato Wedges and Assorted vegetables. Whee!! Haha. Yups. All done by me!! Haha (haolian haolian haolian!!). Bought Jacobs Creek Merlot. Think it's nice! Haha. It's red wine, for those who don't know. LOL. So yea. That's my Christmas dinner.

So here's to everyone. Merry Christmas and God bless all of you. =)

-js-

Friday, December 23, 2005

Brown Stranger wallet. *beams*

Pair of Blue Total 90 Indoors. Ok, I know the picture doesn't look very bluey. Haha. Could not find a picture that's blue. So yea.

Ok, those two stuff are just the thing's I'd really love to have for my birthday, as my birthday present. Haha. It's on 9th of Jan! Haha. Whoots! =D Watched Narnia with my dad today. Got rather pissed off with him at first. But, well, it's all over. So yea, nothing much at the end.

Anyway, Narnia's a very nice movie. It swells! Haha. Really. 2 thumbs up. =)

I miss my friends from 4K. Haha. Never expect myself to say this but yea. I sort of miss them. Haha.

All I want for Christmas is my family, my friends and my stuffed toys. Haha. Who needs other people? And I mean FRIENDS. =)

Merry Christmas people!

-js-

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Hmms. Apparently my brain's dead. As in, officially dead.
Reason 1. I went to Westmall to look for my WONDERFUL meimei and Ruiping. Nothing wrong with that. Problem is, they're at Lot 1. Period. Haha.
Reason 2. I went to Westmall, again, to look for Lerxian. Where was I suppose to meet him? Boon Lay.
Reason 3. I was looking for my hairband. Where was it? In front of me.

So there you have it. My brain. Pea-sized. Dead.

Saw Ruiping today. My oh my. I dare not describe her here. Why? 'cause I can't seem to find the correct words to describe her beauty. =) I sound like I'm trying to hook her up or something. Haha.

-js-

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

First things first. I'm having problems breathing now. Yes. I'm not sure why too. Haha. Played soccer with people from church. Had training before playing a match. I need to shoot with my left foot more often. Haha. Scored the first goal of the match through a corner kick. Haha. Lucky chap. Went to McDonald's with them after soccer.

Ooooh. I completed my jigsaw puzzle!! Haha. I'm super excited. Haha. I'm so going to buy another one from the same place. Haha. Hopefully I get to see the cute salesgirl again. Haha. I sound sick. Haha.

Merry Christmas people. And please note it's Christmas. Not X-mas. Don't take the Christ out of it. =)

-js-

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

I'm sick. Under the weather that is. Haha. Played pool with Darrell today. Won the match 6-4. Haha. So nearly lost the entire thing. My goodness. But quite happy with today's performence. =)

Anyone interested in giving me TLC? Lol. I badly need it. I'm a poor lil boy suffering from flu. *sobs* I'm crapping. Bought a puzzle today. Bought the frame as well. Oh!! The sales person was super pretty!! AHH!! Haha. Nearly went gaga over her. Couldn't take my eyes off her. Haha. But she's about 19 i think. Sighs. Too bad. Haha.

I'm like super weak now. Bleargh. No la. Just a lil sick that's all. Hope that I'll feel better tomorrow. Planning to complete 10% of the puzzle tomorrow. Haha.

*all the best for your trip*

-js-

Monday, December 19, 2005

I'm home! Haha. Slept at 4 plus and woke up at around 6 before sleeping again and waking up at 9 again. Haha. Thanks Darrell! He rocks my socks off. =)

Done with all the letters and stuff. I'm so tired now. Going to play pool with Darrell tomorrow! Haha.

Played soccer with the sleepover people today. Had a match with people from 2A'03. 3 nil! Whoots! Clean sheet! Haha. All thanks to Darrell, our star keeper. Haha. Good job done by Boss Jiahui, Xiangwei, Jireh and Darrell. I've got a feeling I stubbed my toe. Kinda bled during the match. Ouch. Nevermind. What's that compared to what I've been through before? Haha.

The following is specially typed for Val:

Oh no. I'm tagged again ah? Lol. This is the third time I'm tagged! Must I really do it? Haha. A bit lazy. So, I'm not going to do it. Haha. Tag me again. Maybe I'll do it the next time. Haha. Take care of your knee yea? Though I seriously have no freaking idea how you can roll down the stairs. So yea. =)

That's about all guys. Hmms. Feeling a lil' tired. Anyway, my birthday's coming soon! Sooner than sooner! Haha. 2 more weeks and I'm 17! Haha. Can't tell right? Hmms. So please do what you have to do. Haha.

God loves you people. =)

-js-

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Hmm, at Darrell's house now. Interesting how we guys love to stay over at people's houese. Very erm, weird. Haha. Just finished watching Liverpool vs Sao Paolo. How saddening. Nevermind. Next time Reds. I'm sure you guys can do it next time. Provided of course if theres a next time. Haha.

Watching the World Pool now. Professionals will always be professionals.

Bought $45 worth of Christmas Cards just now. Haha. Oh no. I'm broke. Haha.

Life after everything is less stressful and also less sad. Seriously, I don't know why I kept myself in the troubles and problems in the past. But everything's in the past right now. So yea. All over. Laugh it off, move on. Stop in your tracks and gaze around. Notsure what to do and what to expect. Move along the path that's in front of you and just take whatever comes along. Yups. That's the way. How easy everything sounds and how it's being said. But at the end of the day, no matter what you say and what people say, it's all about what you do and how you do it. Life will never be the same ever again. Hmms. Maybe? We never know.

I don't need your care or your concern just because you feel that you have to or that you feel that it's something you have to do to redeem yourself. Drop the mask and face the world as it is. I'd rather you not message or ask about stuff. 'cause when you do, I'll start to think if you're doing it for other reasons. As a friend, or as an ex, or as a I donno what. I'd rather you just get out of my life. Get out and move out. Stop it all and just forget about stuff. You're good at forgetting stuff so just forget about it alright? *Slaps myself*

Let's move on.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Just finished writting a letter. My goodness. I have like donno how many more letters to go and hopefully they will all be ready by the 22nd. Hmm. Not sure why but I just want to send them out as soon as possible. I don't want them to not be able to receive them! Haha. My jies rock! Haha. I love my jies. Weee. Haha. They are really a bunch of great people. Serious. Drop dead serious. =)

Anyway guys, I'm posted to ACJC Arts for PAE. Weee. Haha. My first choice. Bring on the problems! Haha. I'm nuts.

Second day without her. Not too bad today. But it wasn't really without her. Talked to her online this morning. All the best to her for her trip.

Talked to Lijia online last night. She's really a wonderful senior. When was the last time you saw or heard about a senior who's caring enough to console a junior who's like donno how many years younger? Not me. Haha. So yea, cheers for Lijia. =)

I'm going to start work tomorrow. Sighs. Let's just hope I'm able to make enough for the chalet that's coming up. Don't want to ask my dad for more money. People who have enough won't know what it's like. Hmm.

-js-

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Today's a boring day. Firstly my dad pangseh me by not taking leave. Haha. We were supposed to watch Pride and Prejudice today. Nevermind. Work's more important. So yea, I'm cool with it.

Today marks the first day I've to learn to live without her. Hmm. Very weird feeling all of a sudden. Not sure why either. I think it's just a habit that whenever I wake up there'll be a message ready for me to reply. There wasn't one today. There hasn't been one the whole day. I think I was a little harsh by saying it straight, " Get out of my life." Hmm. Nothing much I can do now. Said it, did it. Too late for regrets. I reviewed all the messages from last night. Found out lots of stuff when I read it through again. The thing that keeps knocking me in the head is that on earth did she want to get into one when she could have told me how she was feeling at that time? To prevent me from getting hurt? I don't know. Only she knows.

Alright. I'm really feeling bored. Bored till my hair's going to turn black on its own. Haha. Help.

Should I take up the Starhub Roadshow job? Hmm. $30 per person. No basic pay. Haha. My goodness. Should I?

-js-

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Just got back from Orchard. The day started pretty well for me. Woke up at 930 in the morning. Played Football Manager till about 10 plus before washing up to meet the girls at JE Pop at 1030. Saw Beeying there and started to look for the rest of them. Walked to Chevrons alone as I didn't feel like waiting for others. Called Hongwei and met him there. Played a couple of rounds of bowling before deciding to meet the other seniors at Orchard. Met Huimin at Orchard. Oh my goodness. Can't really think of a word to describe her beauty. Haha. Hmm, maybe the word, "Whoa!" can describe. Haha. Really pretty and all. =)
Went for lunch at Food Republic. Not bad! Haha.
Walked to Cine as we wanted to watch a movie. Hmm. Sadly there wasn't any movies to watch. Huimin left as she felt like going home cause there wasn't really anything to watch. Really sad. Nevermind. Next time.
Watched Perhaps Love. Don't ask if you should watch it cause I'll say watch it and you'll waste 2 hours and 7 bucks. Haha. No offense but I really didn't know what the show or movie was talking about. Haha. But I particularly liked this quote, "I'm bewitched by you, bewildered by you." Something like that. Was said by Jacky Cheung. Haha. And his singing was excellent. Haha. The show to me was about how a movie portrayed the life of 3 people. Yups. A movie of a movie of a dream of a life of 3 people. Oh my goodness. It's complicated. Haha.
Went for dinner with JY and HW. Walked to the bus stop and boarded the bus. Talked about NBA and Soccer. Hmm. Received some messages. Shan't say anything about it now. Later. Had a really nice time talking to 2 of my favourite seniors. =)
Now for the messages. All I can say is that I'm disappointed. Serious. I guess Wentong and Nalan were right afterall. It was like a game of both parties needing each other. There was no commitment, no shared ideas, no nothing. Such things cannot be treated lightly and I guess I'm just disappointed in myself that I didn't listen to their advices and all. And to think that I still wanted to wait for the 2 whole damned years. Pardon the language. I'll be going all out, well, maybe just a lil more explicit than normal. Get the freaking hell out of my life. Go on and wait. Go get another guy for all I care now. Go for that SJI guy for all I care. Toy another guy like how you toyed with me. And to think that I actually travelled from Jurong to Newton just to teach something. My goodness what on earth was I thinking when I did that. My brother had the same fate when he was in J1. He met this girl, got together and all. The girl dumped him when she was at the airport preparing to board the plane for holiday. My brother actually taught her Math, allowing her to do well, getting a B instead of her usual C's and D's. It's like, I can't believe how some people are able to be so heartless and just end it. Maybe it's true that a shortlived pain is better than a long suffering pain. But, I donno. I can't really accept people for abandoning stuff. Well, maybe it's retribution? Haha. For now, I just want to clear my mind and start to live without her messages and all that stuff. Yups. I know I can do it, and I will do it. Cheers for SingleHood. Haha.

Oh by the way, if YOU are reading this entry, just want to let you know that there ain't no hard feelings. 'cause I don't have the right to feel angry over the issue and neither do I have any right to make you feel sad anymore.

-js-

Monday, December 12, 2005

The following entry shall be dedicated to a blur sotong called Val. Haha. Ahem. Apparently this blur lil sotong thought her computer had been infected by a strange virus that prevents her from typing the alphabets. She could only key in numbers. Feeling worried and pissed off by the fact that she could not express herself, she decided to just go offline. I was rather amused by her going offline all of a sudden reason being she would always say goodbye before going off. A few minutes ago, this lil girl beeped me online. She told me the truth to why she went offline. She got her brother to check it out. And guess what? The number lock was activated. That's why she could not type anything but numbers. -.-" Haha. There you have it. Val, the blur lil sotong. Haha.

I can't believe I woke up at 9 plus 10 this morning. Oh my goodness. Half a day gone just like that. Sheesh. But I guess it's alright, as I don't have any activities planned for today. How sad. Nevermind. I can't decide whether to go for the 4K outing or the CO lunch thingy. Hmm. If I go for CO lunch thingy, I'll only be having lunch as I cannot even enter the school compound due to my unnatural brown hair. That's sad. But if I go for 4K outing, then I may not be able to see the CO people till who knows when. Ah crap. First I don't have anything to do, now I can't decide on what to do. Haha. This is getting tough.

Had a wonderful chat with Serene Seah online last night. She made me realise that there's no need for a fight and there is no need to fight alone. Leave it all to God and He will lead me to the one He reserved for me even before I met her. I guess that's really true. See what Church Camp does to you? Haha. Mum/Dad, if you're reading this now, please do not kill me over it. Haha.

I'm feeling super duper bored now. Oh no. Why must I always feel bored? Grr. I think I'll just stay home today. Hmm. I'm bored.

-js-

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Why do we force ourselves to do things? Is it so that we can prove to people that we are not weak? Or is it just to pacify people? I don't like to be forced into doing something that I have no intention of doing. Thus, I don't like to force people into doing something. I also don't like people to have the feeling of being forced into doing something for me or do something just to make me happy. Enough of pretending. Get on with life, move on.
I'm hooked on A Mind of It's Own. Haha. Keep listening to it. Oh no. Haha.

-js- As I was eating my prata and watching Chelsea win another fluke victory, I realised that I must start to learn to endure tauntings and start to be less jealous of stuff. I cannot be jealous over things simply because I no longer have the right to do so. Her actions are not of my concern. I cannot force her to do anything, neither does she need to report her every action. Much as I want her to, I cannot do so. Simply because she is no longer mine. Simple as that.
As I was browsing Friendster profiles, I happened to stumble upon her profile. Curious me decided to click on the button called Friends. So I started to look for some people. As expected, I found it. A sudden feeling of jealously ran through my entire body, taking over my sanity and thoughts. Intense anger was felt at that time, almost breaking me into half or even worse, prompting me to just take my mobile and demand a reason. Then I thought. Is it not her choice? Is it not up to her to whether or not she wants to make new friends? I knew I was right about that. It's not within my control and not for me to interfere. I must learn to let it go, slowly but surely. I have to and I need to. Both for me and also for the good of others. I cannot force the issue. Like in basketball. Forcing the issues will usually result in offensive fouls or even causing injuries to yourself. It's alright if you're just hurting yourself. But please for goodness sakes don't drag people into the mess alright? So yea. Thought about it and guess it's true.
What we had were memories. Memories are there to make our lives better. It's like condiments. Making life less boring and stuff. At least I have things to look back upon now. As I grow, I'll have something to remember. And when I grow old, I'll make sure I tell my grandchildren about her. How wonderful she was, how sweet she was. How pretty and how whatever you can imagine. How she said those 3 words, how she laughed and how she walked and how she was shy to look into my eyes on the train. Or even the type of fragrance she liked, Hugo Boss, and said that the smell lingered around even as she was in school after our meeting and that she was sad that she lost it after a while. Or that she could not finish 2 Delifrance fruit tarts but eat it nonetheless to prevent me from feeling sad. Or even how I refused to throw away the empty box of Shapes, the very first and also the very last thing she gave me. Memories of a 16 year old boy. The story of a lil boy who was bewitched by the dancer, who danced into his heart, stealing his heart and soul, making him go gaga over her. How she sat at the table, listening to the tutor talk about self motivation. The lil boy wasn't paying attention at all. He was only interested in knowing the girl. How fate allowed the lil boy to know the dancer, who eventually became the lil girl. How they changed nicks, to make them sound so cheesy. How Ken and Barbie came together, how lil girl had lots of adjectives to describe her. How a dancer was a turtle and a slug and an angel at the same time. All these will go down memory lane. Let's just hope it will not end up in the gutter but hit the strike. But dreams are just dreams. They are called dreams for a reason. Because they are so beautiful but yet, impossible to touch.
Reflecting on that very night, I realised that I took it harder than I would expect myself to take it. I somehow get the feeling that I got affected more than she did. Guess its just some MCP thingy going on that prompted me to type that last line there. But I just get the feeling that it is so.
"Giving up easily would just mean it not being important in the first place."
Wonder why people always say, "I promise...." or "Forever" or "For life" or "For...." They don't even know what's going to happen the next day. Silly people. That's why, never ever say, "I promise never to leave you" or "I promise that I'll love you forever" That will not happen. Ok, maybe it does. But not often.
Waiting for a simple message is painful but yet sweet at the same time. Although it's just a simple message and that the sweetness is only so minute and stuff, it's enough to make people go gaga over it. Technology destroys people. So yea. That's my prata thought of the day.

-js-

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Wee. I got a new skin for my blog. Haha. Found it on Blogskins. Thought it looked kinda nice and fuzzy and all that lil girl stuff. Haha. Oh come on, I know your saying and thinking, "How gay!" and stuff like that. But truth is I really like this skin. Not sure why either. Haha. Too bad people, you've got a feminine friend. Haha.
Tried to find people to go play pool or sing today. Sighs. Could not even find a decent soul to go with me. Sheesh. I have no life. Oh ya. I'm going to kill Ignatius when he comes back from the US. Reason? For causing LAN outings to be a failure. Haha. Friends of Ignatius please tell him to stay in US forever cause I'm going to slaughter him. Haha. Nah. Just kidding.
It's interesting how music can bring people together. The difference in skin colour and religion is absent when all the notes come together to form a chord or a harmony. It's one of the few things in life that allows people to put their differences aside and have a common goal or target that brings people together. Coming from an Orchestra, I feel that it is true that the only thing that can allow people to work together is music. I remember the times when I did not really like a certain person in the Orchestra for whatever reason. Despite me not liking the person's character and work attitude (not like people loved mine), I was still able to work with the person and produce what we called music. It was pleasant. There wasn't any problems when the notes were played, as they harmonized. Interesting eh?

-js-

Friday, December 09, 2005

Got back from 2L chalet. Rather fun. Haha. Let's see, apart from the rare disagreements because of some egos, the chalet was pretty fun. We practically hogged the xbox console in the room. Haha. Got hooked on the RPG game. Interesting to see how a small console's able to capture the attention of young adults. Hmm.
Had a wonderful discussion with my friends at mac's. Topic was on Rich and Poor. We went on and on, giving different views from different view points. I don't think I'll have another experience like that in future. Really wonderful group of friends. "Perfection is defined by the ability to accept flaws in the person." Came up with this idea when we were discussing.
We played Bridge and more Bridge. Haha. Walked around, played Pool and Bowling. I was shocked. Not by how well I played but by how atrociously I played. My goodness. 2 balls out of donno how many went in for pool. Donno how many gutter balls for bowling. Nearly killed myself. Grr. Haha
I'm so freaking bored at home now. Darrell and co. are NOT REPLYING my messages. Argh. Haha. I'm going hyper because of boredom. Kill me.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Just got back from outing with the tuition people. I must say that pool was fun! Haha. Played 7 games with Glen. Lost the game 3-4. Sad. Haha. He's real good! Hmm.

Now for an explicit entry. Pardon me if I really swear alright? =)

What in the world was I thinking? Oh my goodness. Enough is enough. I cannot take it no more. Hmm. Maybe I was just being petty and all. But please tell me which guy can accept a guy getting close to the girl he likes? Oh please. I don't know what happened, and I certainly DO NOT want to know if it is like what I guessed it is. No guys, I'm not going to scold or scream vulgarities like my life depends on it. All I'm going to say is, "I'm tired." I sat there, waiting for time to pass. Ordered a cup of iced coffee from Starbucks and sat there. As I waited, my heart went boom boom boom. Acceleration was definately not constant. It was accelerating acceleration. Why am I talking about Physics? Haha. I wanted to meet her so very badly. But the moment I saw her, I knew it was a mistake. A deft mistake.
My mind went blank the moment I saw her message last night. Why tell me who you are going to PS with (no guys, not THAT PS. It's the place.) ? It's like ambiguous feelings running through me. Much as I want to know who you are with, I don't want to know you are with someone else. Ah crap. I don't even know what I'm talking about. Haha.
Wait, isn't this déjà vu? Hmm. It happened before, didn't it? I'm making inferences without proof. But if one doesnt clarify stuff, how is it that others are able to know what really is going on? Lit student. Sighs.
Melody Beattie once said, " Love means each person is free to follow his or her own heart." That's true. Helen Keller said, " I'm not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship. " But I like what Javan said, " Love can somtimes be magic. But magic can sometimes just be an illusion. " Nan Fairbother said, " The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do." Finally, I said, "A crush is not a crush if it doesn't hurt. Love is not love if it doesn't result in someone getting hurt." Quotes were from Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul III.
I really need to get my life-bearings right. I've wasted enough time to get me to the moon and back. I need to know where I'm heading, where I'm going to end up and everything. I hate to admit this but, going out the group was kinda weird. I donno why too. I'm just unable to fit into the group. Hmm. Guess I'm better off hanging around in urban places instead of in the city and orchard road. Jurong will always be the place I'm able to be myself. I don't need another place, all I need is Jurong, for that's where I can really be who I am. I don't need to put on fake pretenses. I lost myself, my soul and stuff like that. Oh my gosh, this is starting to get a little too fake. Haha. See what I mean? Hanging out with normal people suits me better. Not that she's abnormal, but it's just that, I donno. All I know is that I can never say what I really want to say IN MY OWN LANGUAGE. I cannot use words like, "sian" or "kao" or "siam" and stuff like that. I'm not me! I'm not that outgoing Jackson, that jerk-ass Jackson or that gay Jackson that my friends know! Sighs. All I can say is that I'm not being myself. Much as I tried to convince myself that, hey, I am still who I am. But it never really happened. I know deep down inside, I've changed. Can you imagine someone using Microsoft Words to check the spellings of words when sending a sms? I wouldn't bother to spell correctly if I was messaging, say, ET or Aaron or Nalan. But, why am I doing all that? I donno.
Why am I deluding myself? Why am I trying to convince myself that what I'm doing is correct and worth it all? Convince me. Not asking her to convince me. Because I know she will never convince me. All she'll say is, "The choice is yours and yours alone." How many times have I seen or hear her say that? Hmm. Let's see.. Erm, countless.
Quote from Perez, "We'll see if we made the correct choice when everything ends. Don't judge the decision now." So I guess, that's what we should look forward to.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Well, I just got back from watching Chicken Little. Rather interesting movie I guess? Haha. Sitting there, munching on my popcorn and drinking that gigantic cup of iced lemon tea alone is kinda weird. Funny experience. Haha. Hmm.
To be honest, I wanted to watch the movie only to buy the luck of meeting her there. I don't know why, but I feel kinda weird going out with the group. It really does feel very awkward. Guess it's just me. Not that I'm anti-social or what. Friends will tell you that Jackson and anti-social do not go together. It's just, yea. Not sure why either.
Did some shopping after watching the movie. Bought a book and also my facial stuff. I practically walked the entire Raffles Place, Suntec City and also Marina Square. Haha. Madness. Suntec City was in a mess today. Not sure why but half of level 1 was flooded! Apparently the faulty sprinklers caused the flood. Haha. Anyway, does anyone know if U.K Shyam is back in Singapore? Because if he is, then I saw him at Suntec! Haha. Oh my goodness. The first thing I did to be sure if it was him was to look at his leg muscles. Oh my, the man had excellent muscles. His legs were WHOOTS! Haha. Then I kinda stared at his face, without him knowing of course! The more I look at him, the more I feel that it is him! Haha. He was with a woman. Most probably his girlfriend, I think. Haha.
I'm tired from all that walking that I'm actually sitting on my bed typing this entry. Haha. I'm going mad. Weeee.. Haha.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Crouch scored! Haha. Wonderful match to watch.
Just got back from church. Been a long time since I last went there. Hmm. Nothing changed, apart from the fact that there were many empty seats. I wonder why.
Mondays have no meanings for me. Start of a week, start of all the problems. Stab in the dark, searching aimlessly for the ending point. Random thoughts.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

I can't seem to get along with my dad these days. I don't know if it's me or if it's him. But i guess it should be me. Sighs. I just cannot seem to control my temper these days. And I just made him so very pissed just now. Argh. I don't know what to say or what to do now. I just want to get all these problems over and done with so that I can be back to myself again. Sighs.

Had lunch at Pepper Lunch with Wentong today. Rather interesting lunch I must say. But sorry, don't really have the mood to talk about it now. Sighs.