Friday, January 27, 2006

I cannot help but fear for my O level results. It seems like eternity. Sighs. My goodness. I cannot imagine what would happen if I were to get something like 14 or 15. I'll cry my lungs out before digging my eyeballs out so that I won't need to cry over it ever again. Argh. Results!!! Crap. Just when I'm starting to love the class, I have to leave it. Hmms. Maybe we'll be together, maybe we won't. It's all planned. At the end of the day, I must know that there's a reason to why I got the results. All I can do is hope and pray, 'cause heaven knows. There's a reason and it's up to me to figure it out. Embrace the Lord. Fear Him, not be scared of Him. Love Him, not denounce Him. The Lord will never leave you or forsake you. Thank you, Lord, for everything that You've planned.
Chinese New Year's coming soon. Get set for some feasting and some happy times with family and friends. I've decided to just cast all worries to the Lord, 'cause He'll know what to do.

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1AD2 rocks my socks off can?! Haha. We were like mad during AC Celebration! Haha. Or should I say, I was the only one who was mad. LOL. Aiyah. Don't care la. 1AD2 rocks as much as Bart's shorts. LOL!! They are the corniest bunch of people who are just so happening. Haha. Weee!! =D *beams*

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Playing pool with Darrell tomorrow. Lost to him 3-1 today. Sighs. 13-11 now. Argh!! I must train!! Haha. Sounds so egoistic. Eeew. Egoistic guys are jerks. So don't be a jerk yea? =)

-js-

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

I just finished writting my first GP essay of 2006. Haha. So yea. Rather pleased with myself 'cause this is the first time in don't know how many donkey years that I've successfully completed my homework. Haha. Surprise surprise! Haha. I'm going wocky. LOL.

GP essay was about Poverty. It really dawned upon me just how shallow human beings are. We really are a bunch of ignorant idiots who happen to be sad that we ain't getting our Ipod Nano's and our new Xbox 360s. People in Africa are crying out loud for a morsel of food and here we are throwing bowls of rice away simply because it doesnt suit our taste. Time to reflect. Hmms. Feeling ashamed of myself. Sighs. Nevermind. Let's just spare a thought for those suffering yea? =)

Hey guys, let's make poverty history alright? =) Click on that button at the top of my page to find out more. Your efforts will save the 800 million people currently suffering from poverty. Thanks. =)

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My friend asked me this very simple question online just now. "You jio-ing any girl right now?" I answered, "Got one scgs girl(what's with me attracted to scgs girls?! hmms) I kinda attracted to but no. Even if I want to also don't dare." I guess I've become timid over the years. I'm afraid of rejections. After what happened, I've lost faith in relationships. Much as they can be sweet and nice, it can be tiring and painful. But at the end of the day, you win some u lose some. I'm sure I'll find that very special person God reserved for me one day. Guess there's only one relationship that will never cease to exist. That's the relationship with God. Any idea how strong and powerful God's love is? We don't know. It's just so long, so high, so deep that we can never feel the full effect of God's love. That's how powerful God's love is. He doesn't love us for what we are or what we did. He loves us only because He loves us. Yes. He loves us because He loves us. He does not ask for anything in return. Ask yourself, what does God get in return of Him loving us? Nothing! He loves us not because of what we can give Him or what we can return in offer but because we are His children! For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. That's how great and awesome our God is. And for you people out there who don't believe whatever I've just typed and pass this off as crap, I do not blame you. I was like that too. Even more so last year, when I plunged into the world of the unknown. I felt so unloved because I didn't see any changes no matter how hard I prayed. Then I understood. I wasn't praying because I felt like running to God. I prayed because I wanted to make use of God to get what I wanted. We all are selfish. We want to use other people to gain what we want. Pray with an earnest heart. Open your heart to God. Accept Christ as your Saviour. You'll start to see a whole new meaning to your life. What's a life that's full of vulgarities? What's the meaning of life when all you do is to surf porn and have sexual desires of other people? What's the meaning of life when all you do is to hurl abuses at people even at the slightest thing? There isn't any meaning! Jesus died for you, my friends. He didn't do it because he was forced to. He did it because he wanted to cleanse us of our sins my friends! Think about it. Think about it long and hard.
Things don't always go our ways. They happen because of a reason. The reason being? Only God knows. And it is up to us to find that out ourselves. But at the end of the day, remember. Always return to the beginning. =)

God bless you my friends. I really hope that you guys will think over it and yea. =)

-js-

Sunday, January 22, 2006

It's been a long time since I last updated. Many interesting things happened during this course of 4 days. Hmms. Experienced both sadness and happiness. 2 extreme inner most feelings of the human mind. I'm finding it hard to believe that 17 years just went past like this. Geesh.

Let's talk about the Sentosa outing I had with 4K-ers yesterday. Really enjoyed myself yesterday. It's a great feeling seeing them. Chatted with them and talked to them about JC life and also about some new findings. Haha. Met the 4K-ers at Harbourfront at about 11 plus. Went to have lunch with them at Pastamania. Nalan and Elaine were kind enough to buy ET's and my birthday presents. Haha. Thanks Elaine, Nalan, Cal, Yanrong and Lay! Haha. Can't remember got anymore or not. Hmms. So now I'm a proud owner of a pair of beautiful blue Fila Slippers. Yay!*beams* So we went to Sentosa after lunch. Met Matin on the bus. Yups. Matin, my long lost primary school good friend. Haha. Miss the times when we went to JurongEast library to play Neopets. LOL!!

Headed to Palawan Beach to play. Hmms. Was feeling rather reluctant to play in the beginning. But then, as I escorted Lay to find Elaine and people, Yanrong decided to throw sand at me. So I decided to just play. Took the shirt off and just went into the water and started to play really silly games. Super fun. ET and Aaron joined in soon after. So we played and played as we waited for WeiQuan and Desmond to arrive. By then we were already playing silly games like HaiDai Quan and Honey, If you love me would you please smile. LOL! We soon decided that HaiDai Quan wasn't interesting enough. So we modified it into HaiDai Quan, Truth or Dare version. LOL. We had to sing our school song if we WON the game. LOL. Really spastic. Lay had to go to 3 people and ask silly questions. Really funny.

Swam to the other side of the beach. Haha. I walked to the other side with some of them cause we felt that we would die if we did swim. Jumped into the water after much delibration and daring from the others. Hmms. But its rather fun to dive into the water. LOL. It was so fun that I decided to do it one more time. LOL. So we swam back to the other side after that. LOL.

It started to rain, prompting us to pack up and go wash up. Changed my clothes and walked to 7-11 with Aaron, Desmond and ET. Waited for the girls. Went to the food centre near the bus terminal for dinner. Gossiped about lots of stuff with them and talked about relationship thingys. LOL. Super funny. Went back home after dinner. Took the train with Desmond. Talked about SAJC and ACJC. Hmms. Very interesting experience.

As soon as I was back, I had to go wash up as were about to send my brother to the airport. He's on a reasearch trip to France. How envious. Sighs. Nevermind. So yea. Now I have no one else to talk to. Sighs. It seems as though the only person I can relate to is my brother. Had this urge of calling her and talk to her 'cause I was really feeling very bad and down at that point of time when I reached home from the airport. But I soon decided that it wouldn't be nice to call her at that unearthly hour. So yea.

Now I'm stuck at home alone, with no one to relate to. I really need to talk to someone, to unleash all that bottled up stuff right in there. Don't even know what I'm talking about. Nevermind.

-js-

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Hey people. I have successfully overstrained my arm. Yups. I can't straighten my left arm now. It's overworked. Sheesh. This comes with too many gym sessions. Sighs. Wonder when's the next time I can go for my gym session. Hmms.

-js-

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Had my first ever basketball training today. Hmms. Though I'm pretty sure I'm performing way below what my other peers are performing, I'm pleased with my overall performence because I knew that I gave it my best shot. It's not the outcome that matters. It's the process and the fact that I did my best. So yea. Haha. Not sure if I'm in the team yet because the captain said something about the teacher-in-charge trimming the size of the J1s. Hmms. Not very sure. Sighs. Just hope for the best yea? =)

I'm so tired now. Don't feel like doing my History stuff. But I need to re-write my notes! 'cause it's super messy and everything. Argh. Don't know what to do. I only know I'm very tired. LOL

-js-

Monday, January 16, 2006

Had my first ever lecture today. Hmms. Rather interesting experience. Haha. Had GP lecture in the morning before having a 40 minute break. Continued with History lecture. Going to be a long day tomorrow. LOL. Decided to go for Basketball trials tomorrow. Doesn't matter if I don't get in. Just want to give it my best shot and not have any regrets. =)

Outing this Saturday! YAY! LOL. I so want to go for the outing!! Weee.. Get to do what I so badly want to do again! Haha. *beams*

Had a very surprising Skype call just now. LOL. Of all people to call, it had to be THAT ONE. LOL. Heck. Can't be bothered. Waste my time thinking. Oh! I finally found a person who knows her. LOL. Tianyong's OG mate.

Had a very interesting and funny talk with JieWei's senior during break today. Haha. He was super funny and sultra horny. LOL. He was telling us sick stories of AC and JJ. Haha. Super fun. LOL. Example? Chicken McF***. LOL!!! What the hell? =P

-js-

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Went for the RV 50th Anniversary Concert last night. Very interesting to see so many juniors up on stage, performing to a packed hall. Hmms. I must say that I'm impressed with what the juniors did last night. Really. So yea, work harder alright? =)

Went to Mac's with 4J people and Jireh and ChiaHoe. Haha. We were laughing like mad in there. Haha. Told jokes and stories that made all of us laugh till there was no tomorrow. LOL. Had a very good time being with them. =) Fellowship with them's the best! Haha.

Hmms. Saw her last night. Hmms. Complicated feelings. But as they say, drop your head and just move along. Yups. Guess that's what I have to do, although I really don't want to. Aiyah. Stop it la. LOL. Move it! I like to move it move it!! =P

Anyway, if anyone of you is able to get the piece entitled Why by Pam Wedgwood, PLEASE send it to me alright? Thanks. Love that song to bits. Haha. Serious. Never have I enjoyed myself so much while playing a particular piece. Hmms. Interesting. Was it because of the melody? Or was because of the person? I don't know. We'll see..

-js-

Friday, January 13, 2006

I have black hair. Haha. Finally. LOL.

My freaking previous entry's all gone 'cause apparently blogger didn't for donno what reason save my entry although I pressed "publish post" Hmms. Nevermind.

I'm super sleepy now. Sighs. And I have CO tomorrow. Argh. 9am in the morning! Freaking. ARGH!! Bleargh

Concert tomorrow! And I get to see certain people!!! YAY!! Haha. Can't wait to see certain people. Hmms.

-js-

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Bad day. Very bad day. Why? 'cause it's a freaking boring day today!! Yes! B-O-R-I-N-G!! Sighs. Nothing to do. Crap. Grr. Nevermind.

New skin for a new age. LOL. Darn it. I miss the 4K-ers. Sighs. At least I get to see some of them in AC. Wonder how the others are doing in their respective JCs. Especially the people in JJ!! Argh. Nevermind.

Oh by the way, tag and comment about the Steamship story I blogged last night alright? Haha. Thanks.

Mon coeur pleure dehors pour vous,
Vous refusez de reconnaître.
Je suis perdu sans vous,
Me mènerez-vous ? Ou volonté vous juste me laissez.

-js-

Monday, January 09, 2006

Had gym session with See Chong, WeiShen and Tianyong today. Joshua was sick so yea, couldn't join us. It was indeed a wonderful workout. Haha.

Allow me to share some deep thoughts alright? =)

As the foghorns sound, the sky starts to fade. The steamship starts to move out, into the ocean, into the blue. Nobody knows where the ship's going, or where it's heading to. The ship, carrying the hopes of each and every passenger. The burden on it's "shoulders" is unknown to all. It's deepest secret is unknown. It remains to be an enigma. A Knight in Shining armour, some call it. A beautiful ship, some know it as. Different names and different views. The ship. What is its name? Nobody knows. What is its real face like? Nobody knows. Only the captain does. Does he?

Ah, the captain. That very man, who watched the ship grew. He watched it sailed the sea, the oceans. He was there, on the maiden voyage. He was there, when the ship crashed. He was there, to witness its bad state. But most importantly, he was there, to guide the ship. The ship would be nothing but scrape metal if it wasn't for the captain.

The ship met with countless of accidents. It was hurt, not only on the outside but more importantly and significantly, on the inside as well. Water gushed into the ship, threatening to sink it. Metal chains was around it, hurling it from side to side. Nobody at that time felt that the ship will ever be the same. And rightfully so. The ship was never the same. It became better. 16 years of being only pretty. It finally became the "Kaiser of the Sea". It's majestic frame, huge and awesome. But yet, deep down, it felt lost. The captain didn't abandon it. He decided to stay on, treated it well even though it wasn't the same ship. The "Kaiser" was never really a Kaiser. It felt inferior, compared to other ships. The other ships were running more smoothly and at a faster pace as well. It was nothing. "Kaiser" was only just a name. It wanted so badly to become like the other ships. It yearned for the same attention. It tried to run like the other ships. It failed. It failed badly.

One cold night at the harbour, the captain walked beside the ship. He started to tear. The ship was no longer the ship he once knew. The conviction and confidence was gone. The ship was down. It lost. It was no longer the Kaiser.

The Kaiser woke up. It dawned upon it that it must start to move on. It cannot dwell on past glories or past accidents. Move forward, thrust forward. The Kaiser made a vow. The Kaiser blew it's horn. It signalled the start of a new journey. The Kaiser moved on. Left behind are the painful memories of accidents and failures. But one very painful memory still remains to haunt it. Will the Kaiser be able to fully move on? The captain doesn't know. Only it knows.

So yea. That's my story of the day. Anyway, I'm supposedly the Kaiser. And the captain's my parents. So yea. Not that I'm arrogant or something to call myself the Kaiser. But just that I kinda like the word Kaiser. So, haha. =)

-js-

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Hmms. Been a long time since I last updated. Had loads of fun over the past week. Haha. Orientation was rather fun I guess. Hmms. Well, not exactly fun but yea. So, that's for my first week in ACJC.

Played pool with Darrell yesterday. Lost the game 4-6. Sighs. Getting bad at pool. I must train! Haha. So now, the score is 10-10. Haha. Not bad ah? Been on a losing streak lately. Hmms. Must concentrate. Weee.

My birthday's tomorrow! YES! 17!! Haha. I love my jie(s). Thanks Liane and YuQian!! <3 =)

Anyway, JOY!! Why must change? My layout not nice meh? LOL.

-js-

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

First 2 days of Orientation over. Time flies when you are having fun. Haha. But it really is very tiring. Phew. LOL. First day of Orientation wasn't really very fun as we all were still rather cold towards each other. I was trying my very best to hide my hyper side and try to keep things cool and calm. Had a really very hard time trying to do so. Haha. Second day, which happens to be today, was much more interesting and more exciting. Really had a very fun time, both bonding and playing. Made new friends, like Roy and Bronson and some other people. Really very fun. Haha.

Oh man, I'm starting to love ACJC. Haha. It's really fun and interesting here. The teachers may seem strict and mean but they are actually kinda funny. Haha. Not sure why. Maybe I'll get to know in the future. Haha. Met Clarissa in school today! Whoots! Haha. Saw her when I was queue-ing up for Chicken Rice during recess. Haha. She was like kinda shocked to see me 'cause she thought I went to AJC. Haha. =)

Having fun in your respective JC's people? Update me yea? Thanks! =)

-js-

Monday, January 02, 2006

Played Pool with LerXian today. Oh my goodness. I lost! Noooo. Haha. Lost the game 4-5. Surrendered a 4-2 lead. Haha. Can't believe it. Nevermind. I shall go train and challenge him again! LOL.

Talking with ET online can either result in you being very excited 'cause of things that are going on or that it can kill you 'cause he'll say things that make you feel very gek-ed. Haha.

School's starting soon. Sighs. So fast. Things happen so quickly. How I wish that all these never did happen before. How I wish I wasn't the jerk I used to be, not that I'm not one now. Sighs.

saurez-vous meme que j'heberge toujours des pensees de nous etant ensemble encore?

-js-

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy 2006 people. It's a new year, so new beginnings and stuff like that yea? All the best for the upcoming year and may everyone be allowed to follow their hearts.

Had a small New Year's Day party at Cal's house last night. It was rather interesting and rather erm, weird. Not sure why but it sure felt weird. Guess it's only me. Nevermind. Played Truth or Dare. My goodness. Stuff that teenagers can come up with. Sheesh. The first hug wasn't really too bad but the second one was the ultimate. Interesting. Long story. But honestly, I really felt a little sad when the answer to the Truth question was a No. Go figure out the question.

JC life's going to start soon. A transitional period in life. Looking forward to meeting new people and getting my 3 A's for A levels. A yatch by 35. Right ChiaHoe? =)

-js-