Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Just got back from Orchard. The day started pretty well for me. Woke up at 930 in the morning. Played Football Manager till about 10 plus before washing up to meet the girls at JE Pop at 1030. Saw Beeying there and started to look for the rest of them. Walked to Chevrons alone as I didn't feel like waiting for others. Called Hongwei and met him there. Played a couple of rounds of bowling before deciding to meet the other seniors at Orchard. Met Huimin at Orchard. Oh my goodness. Can't really think of a word to describe her beauty. Haha. Hmm, maybe the word, "Whoa!" can describe. Haha. Really pretty and all. =)
Went for lunch at Food Republic. Not bad! Haha.
Walked to Cine as we wanted to watch a movie. Hmm. Sadly there wasn't any movies to watch. Huimin left as she felt like going home cause there wasn't really anything to watch. Really sad. Nevermind. Next time.
Watched Perhaps Love. Don't ask if you should watch it cause I'll say watch it and you'll waste 2 hours and 7 bucks. Haha. No offense but I really didn't know what the show or movie was talking about. Haha. But I particularly liked this quote, "I'm bewitched by you, bewildered by you." Something like that. Was said by Jacky Cheung. Haha. And his singing was excellent. Haha. The show to me was about how a movie portrayed the life of 3 people. Yups. A movie of a movie of a dream of a life of 3 people. Oh my goodness. It's complicated. Haha.
Went for dinner with JY and HW. Walked to the bus stop and boarded the bus. Talked about NBA and Soccer. Hmm. Received some messages. Shan't say anything about it now. Later. Had a really nice time talking to 2 of my favourite seniors. =)
Now for the messages. All I can say is that I'm disappointed. Serious. I guess Wentong and Nalan were right afterall. It was like a game of both parties needing each other. There was no commitment, no shared ideas, no nothing. Such things cannot be treated lightly and I guess I'm just disappointed in myself that I didn't listen to their advices and all. And to think that I still wanted to wait for the 2 whole damned years. Pardon the language. I'll be going all out, well, maybe just a lil more explicit than normal. Get the freaking hell out of my life. Go on and wait. Go get another guy for all I care now. Go for that SJI guy for all I care. Toy another guy like how you toyed with me. And to think that I actually travelled from Jurong to Newton just to teach something. My goodness what on earth was I thinking when I did that. My brother had the same fate when he was in J1. He met this girl, got together and all. The girl dumped him when she was at the airport preparing to board the plane for holiday. My brother actually taught her Math, allowing her to do well, getting a B instead of her usual C's and D's. It's like, I can't believe how some people are able to be so heartless and just end it. Maybe it's true that a shortlived pain is better than a long suffering pain. But, I donno. I can't really accept people for abandoning stuff. Well, maybe it's retribution? Haha. For now, I just want to clear my mind and start to live without her messages and all that stuff. Yups. I know I can do it, and I will do it. Cheers for SingleHood. Haha.

Oh by the way, if YOU are reading this entry, just want to let you know that there ain't no hard feelings. 'cause I don't have the right to feel angry over the issue and neither do I have any right to make you feel sad anymore.

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