Sunday, November 20, 2005

Had a long chat with Evon online last night. Or should I say, early this morning. She did me a great favour by breaking down my situation. Really needed that from her. She practically analyzed the entire thing and gave me advices on what I should really do. I must say she infers quite a bit too! Haha. Lit student in action I suppose? Was she trying to ignore me and send me a message trying to say, "get the hell out of my life?" Or was it pure coincidence that she couldn't reply? Only she knows. All I can do is hope and pray, 'cause Heaven knows. I admit my life is in shackles now. In a total mess I should say. Silly thoughts and inferences flooding my mind, bombarding my every brain cell, making me go gaga over a simple reply. Why have I become so weak? I shouldn't be like that. My life is full of excitement! I'm suppose to be happy that O's are over! Oh my goodness, what is becoming of me?
I'm not pushing for a reply. Neither am I forcing a reply. All I'm asking for is that to get this thing settled as soon as possible. I want to know if its going to happen again or that it will never be. Get it over soon. It's as hard for me as it's hard for you alright? I hate the way you are treating me. Stop playing hard to catch. I'm sorry if I'm accusing you of stuff. Kill me.